Deep inside us, we have some buried emotional content from unmet needs, which comes knocking on the surface in these challenging times of uncertainty.
Feeling overwhelmed or unsettled during this time of chaotic change? Having an urge to distract yourself from what you can feel lurking beneath the surface? Feeling disconnected from your emotions and power to makes choices and act upon them?
It may be time to venture deep into your Self, re-connect with lost or disowned parts to reclaim your power and creativity and come back to this aching world to create the change you wish to see for the collective!
The Hermit of the Tarot deck journeys into the land of his own darkness, to integrate the parts that he has kept in the shadows. Through an alchemical process, he finds his own light and comes back to share his own medicine and wisdom.
When you embark on such a journey, some fears may come up…
- What lurking monsters will you find?
- What wounds may show up that you have not dared to look at?
- What feelings may need to be felt?
Will you be open to love and embrace all that you find?
- What stories have you told yourself to soothe the pain?
For the courageous who walk down this path, there are also treasures to be found…
- We can discover parts of us which got lost and disconnected.
- We can figure out what they need from us and commit to provide that for them.
- We can embrace them in our loving awareness and integrate them.
- And in doing so, we might retrieve precious treasures…
- our ability to wonder
- our capacity for play
- our unlimited imagination and creativity
- our source of aliveness
- our wide open hearts
- and our power to catalyze the change we want to see in the world
Let me support you as a companion on this journey of self-discovery and integration!
As a creature as much fond of love and light as experienced with pain and darkness, I will hold space for your Hermits Journey with deep compassion for whatever darkness you face and without judgment of whatever you find yourself working through.
Receive 5 private one-on-one sessions in a loving, kind and all embracing space guided by the warm medicine of Mama Cacao.
Session 1: We explore the patterns and worries that trouble you.
Session 2: We explore your intentions for the journey ahead and craft a strong sentence of will for the ritual.
Session 3: We hold a chaos magickal ritual in the form of a cacao ceremony, guiding you to clear your inner space, meet your Inner Child, let them take you to their Abenteuerland. From this magical safe space you interact with them, hear them out, build a bridge of communication to your Adult Self and commit to giving them what they need from you.
Session 4: We explore what has come up since the ritual and figure out how to integrate the needs that have been voiced into your daily life.
Session 5: We map out how you can continue to work with this part of Self and what changes you need to make in your life towards deeper integration of this part and their needs to fully tap into your creativity, playfulness and innocent love that comes from this source.
This Alchemical Journey with Cacao medicine offers a mix of coaching and healing.
I am not a therapist and I cannot heal or fix you. All healing is self-healing.
I can be your companion to activate your capacity of self healing by offering you space and questions for inquiry, by being your witness in loving awareness for whatever wants to be seen and held and by igniting your courage to go deep within yourself.
This journey we will tailor according to your emerging needs. Each session you decide where and how deep you want to go.
Disclaimer: Even though we will venture into the safe space of the Inner Child and not deliberately seek out traumatic spaces, painful memories of this time in your life may resurface during this journey. For some of those I can hold loving space for you to integrate them. For others you might require additional support of a trauma aware therapist.
Monk: 777 Euro (I navigate tight money flow)
Master: 999 Euro (I am on top of my financial flow)
Magickian: 1.555 Euro (I create abundant money flow)
You decide your level of investment according to your financial flow capacity.
Prices include 19% MwSt as tribute to the financial authorities in Germany.
You will receive:
- 4x 90 min 1:1 Coaching Sessions with Cacao
- 1x 240 min Session as a Cacao Ceremony to connect to your Inner Child.
- And a renewed connection to this precious part of yourself.
If this resonates with you…
Book a free 55 Min CHEMESTRY CALL with me to see if I might be the right companion for your Journey.
What my clients are saying about this work
I did 5 sessions with Mariana and, looking back at the point where I started, I feel I worked in a deep and subtle way while supporting the healing process. The benefits I’m having after this path are both regarding the acquisition of a solid structure,needed to have the perspective of my goals and to achieve them and the self-acceptance of my shadow part. Session after session, Mariana created a safe space where I could open and express totally freely. She guided me in the core of my self-sabotaging patterns and helped me to see what adjustments I could do in order to integrate the needs of all layers, both the adult and the child.The rituals she created along the path built an anchor to my whole body-mind system and resonated in a profound way to me.I feel I was provided of the tools I need to surf the realm of this chaotic reality. I strongly recommend her powerful medicine
On one of my Sessions on the coaching journey with Mariana she guided me with a cacao ceremony to meet with my inner child and build a bridge of communication to her world. This ritual was a gateway to explore ancient and profound wounds. Marianas openhearted and healing touch allowed me to dive deep into my wounds and my power. With her caring and grounding presence she held space for me to express deep emotions. She guided me attentively through the ritual allowing me to get a big emotional release. This experience was very healing and liberating. After the Ritual I felt tired, good and very relaxed. She gives out powerful medicine!Letitzia I.
I wasn’t sure what exactly to expect from going into the transformational journey with Mariana at first, all I knew was that I had a need for transformation and felt I could trust her from previous encounters.
Thanks to her guidance and ability to ask the right questions she allowed me to shine light on aspects of myself I had been hiding even from myself in my shadows. She created a safe space to go deeper, so I felt encouraged to open up about vulnerable topics that have kept me stuck in a spiral of negative thinking.
She has a creative way of dissecting parts of myself. With her creative, playful magical practise I realized, step by step, where my potential for positive growth lies.
Each session is full of self discoveries and new insights to explore, which she is able to stir up in the magic cauldron of the subconsciousness with her patient energy and powerful clarity.
I feel empowered in my creativity, curiosity and self awareness in the ways I speak to myself thanks to Mariana´s guidance on this transformational journey.Suzanne W.
I had the lucky opportunity to meet Mariana during a 5 session coaching period. Initially I was not sure how much personal work could be done in what seemed to be a short lapse of time. The results exceeded my expectations immensely. Mariana´s capacity to engage in active listening and her outstanding ease to mirror what she listens to in a deeply reflective way allowed me to find much clarity in life problems that I have been facing and working on for years.Arturo R.
During her sessions she uses a different range of tools to engage in a joint exploration of the self, including meditation, cacao, dance, visualization and other kinds of different rituals. I felt since the first moment that she cared, that she was listening to me and never that she was judging me or telling me what to do. It was never an instruction, always a guided process of self reflection. It was incredible to notice how the answers were coming from myself under her guidance and loving company. I found with her a safe space to share my innermost pains and shames, the shadows of my childhood. Together we visited them and brought them into new lights towards a new relationship to them.
Today I can say that her tools and the work we did together had a very positive impact in my life. It was so relieving to be able to cry and honestly and openly talk about my inner world with someone with so much capacity and integrity like Mariana. I’m extremely grateful to her for her beautiful work and the incredible impact it has had in me. I feel much more sure about myself, about my path and life´s decision. I was able to contact my inner child and bring love to his fears and needs, therefore changing completely the impact these were having on my daily life. I found much space within myself to honestly explore my needs and desires and act in consequence to them. I feel freer than I did and I feel powerful, ready to engage with the next steps of my life´s path towards achieving my dreams and goals.
I’ve often found myself sabotaging my efforts at success and being submissive towards others at the expense of myself. This behavior has typically activated feelings of depression and anxiety. Mariana held such an accepting and sacred space for me to explore the deeper root of these issues, which I realized was an aspect of myself I’ve repressed for many years. I came to understand myself more clearly and understand the strength and power in this shadow part.Andrew D. P.
With her guidance, I allowed this buried part of myself to heal and transmute, seeing it change from a misanthropic tyrant to a beautiful king. Other shadow parts also arose and eagerly took on healthy new roles. I felt a deep trust in Mariana throughout the whole process, and she made everything feel safe. Her steadfast, compassionate presence was a beacon of light. I highly recommend Mariana and ChaoSurfing to anyone seeking to heal their shadow and integrate its wonderful power. What previously was feared becomes loved and understood, allowing more substantial change than anything surface-level could offer. Thank you, Mariana!
Die Einsiedlerinnenreise war eine tiefe Reise zu meinen Ursprungsthemen. Von Anfang an habe ich mich bei Mariana sicher, geerdet und frei gefühlt. Alle Gefühle wie Unsicherheit, Scham, Ausweglosigkeit, aber auch eine tiefe Liebe und Verbundenheit konnten sich damit in wohlig eingepackter Kakaomedizin manifestieren, ohne bedrohlich für mein System zu sein.
Mariana hat auf eine für mich unbeschreibliche Art den Raum gehalten, Safe Space Deluxe!
Damit konnte ich mich öffnen und meiner Kleinen offen und mit Mitgefühl begegnen.
Die Kakaomedizin hat mich dabei unterstützt bei jeder Session ganz schnell in die Herzenstiefe zu gehen und mit der innerlichen Wahrheit zu spielen.
Ich verspüre große Dankbarkeit für diesen Prozess und bin froh eine magische Begleiterin wie Mariana begegnet zu sein. Ich fühle mich verbunden und in ganzheitlicher Akzeptanz mit mir selbst.Dagmar A.
Seit über einem Jahr begleitet mich Mariana bei meiner Selbstentwicklung und Richtungssuche. Nach einem sehr aufschlussreichen Coaching letztes Jahr, indem es mehr um eine beruflichen Perspektiven ging, habe ich mit Marianas Hilfe dieses Jahr eine „Reise“ mit Cacao zu meinem Inneren Kind gemacht und ohne zu übertreiben kann ich behaupten, dass diese Erfahrung mein negatives Selbstbild ins Gegenteil gedreht hat. Ich habe tatsächlich angefangen mich wieder zu mögen und Freude am Leben zu spüren. Mariana hat eine unglaubliche Gabe auf Menschen einzugehen. Jede einzelne Sitzung mit Ihr hat mich zum Denken, Handeln und Weiterentwickeln inspiriert und motiviert. Ich meine es genau so wie ich es jetzt schreiben werde: Dank Marianas Hilfe werde ich ein besserer Vater, Freund, Unternehmer vielleicht sogar Mensch als ganzes. Lange Rede, kurzer Sinn: Fünf von Fünf Sternen 🙂Konrad A.