A transformational journey of of chaos monastics for deep self-inquiry, grounding, integration, brain change and magick.
9 Weeks – 15 Adventurers – 1 Agent of Change & Infinite possibilities.
This Quest might be the next step in your adventure on Earth if you…
- are on the ancient quest to “know thyself” using psychedelics or playing with magick and you want to counterbalance the potentially destabilizing side-effects of reality shocks?
- have a deep urge join a monastery and get out of the social game, but you also want to keep creating in the world?
- are operating with a neuro-divergent wiring of Central Nervous System and want to embrace all of your beautiful Chaos.
- experienced a life altering event or trip and you feel you need to reinvent your Self and create a new path to move on?
- have done some Self-work and leveled up and now you feel like an alien because your social circle does not get you anymore and want to find the others?
- hit a wall and you know you can’t go on operating the way you have been, but you can’t see the new way yet or how to level up?
- feel out of balance and overwhelmed by the rising uncertainty of times of inner or outer crisis, but you know its a chance to level up?
- found God, Unity, Atman, Chaos or whatever and your skeptical mind can´t deal with it?
- are flying high in search of expansion but loosing your ground?
We look for the Secret – the Philosopher’s Stone, the Elixir of the Wise, Supreme Enlightenment, ‘God’ or whatever…and all the time it is carrying us about…It is the human nervous system itself.
― Robert Anton Wilson, Cosmic Trigger Volume I: Final Secret of the Illuminati
The Quest
The invitation is to commit to 9 Weeks of Chaos Monastics questing to find a new balance in the configurtion of your Operating System.
The Balanced Psychonautics Quest challenges you into a deep Self-inquiry, a change in brain programming and the exploration and mapping of different states of consciousness available to you through your Central Nervous System (CNS) and challenges you to tap into your magick.
Each chaos monk will go on a personal transformational journey to examine the wiring of their own CNS on the 8 different levels of consciousness described by Timothy Leary, Robert Anton Wilson and Antero Alli in the 8 Circuit Brain Model – A map of consciousness for psychonauts by psychonauts.
Time coordinates
This journey of virtual monasticism starts October 16th and Ends December 18th.
We will journey together throughout Fall; the season that invites us to slow down after an active summer, begin to look inwards and surrender to the process of death, transformation and rebirth.
We meet online every week:
Sundays 18:00-20:30 CET for a Crew Call Mondays 19:00-20:30 CET for a transmission and Q&A.
Both sessions will be recorded so you can watch them on your time.
The Crew
If any of the above questions resonates, you might fit the crew I am recruiting for this virtual expedition into chaos monastics.
15 Psychonauts or explorers of consciousness are invited to join this Quest as a Crew of Chaos Monks.
You might be used to exploring the elusive territory of Self and Consciousness on your own. Most Chaos Magickians and Chaos Monks do.
Joining a monastic community has its perks though.
As a crew we support each other along the way, with reflections, mirrors, sharing insights and keeping each other motivated on the research of our expedition.
The 8 Circuit Brain Map will give us structure and guidance.
The Balanced Psychonautics Quest 2021 was an exciting journey with many interesting twists and turns, but safely and sensitively accompanied by Mariana. She has a gift for deep psychological immersion. She helped me to find the balance and the way out on various issues. I have successfully implemented many ideas and manifestations with her help. She really takes the time and energy to ensure everyone gets what they envision. I have noticed in myself how far I have changed and transformed with my consciousness. I always felt her presence as a good anchor and safe haven. In this program you are shown a lot of ideas and tools on how to reach your own subconscious and connect with yourself.
I got to know many practical exercises and rituals. It was a very transformative journey that is still going on and is allowed to continue for me.
Mariana is a very safe coach and is very good at managing chaos.
Hische Krause-Jens
The Agent of Change
My name is Mariana Pinzón and as captain of this Crew I invite you to join me for 9 weeks of Chaos Monastics on the Balanced Psychonautics Quest.
I work with unconventional humans, edge-dwellers and neuro-divergent folx, who have dreams and visions for a regenerative future but struggle to actualize them because of their chaotic experiences of life. I take them on a quest of self-discovery, integration and grounding and help them welcome and embrace their Chaos as an opportunity to level up, unleash their magick and craft their own path towards that future.
Mariana’s depth of knowledge takes my breath away; she has such a beautiful heart while being profoundly strong. She is patient and heartfelt and she cares deeply for others. She brings tears to my eyes as she is such a special human being and I feel incredibly honored to know her. Her power and life experiences are her greatest gifts; she is deeply grounded and she is able to touch others’ lives in a meaningful and thoughtful way.
Kana Knox, CEO of Unfurlingheart
Why this model?
I am just another edge-dweller and seeker, surfing the waves of Chaos, sometimes on a roll/smooth ride, sometimes getting bitch-slapped by those waves.
Working with the 8 Circuit Brain Model has tremendously helped me navigate the yet toughest crisis of my life, a scenario of wave after wave hitting me and pulling me down to the point of near drowning.
It helped me understand WTF was going on in my system as a response to this Chaos, to piece myself back together into a new configuration of being and to find new balance and courage to get back into the ocean and play some more with the waves.
It also allowed me to develop compassion and understanding for a partner going through a severe mental health crisis after a drug overdose and in finding a non-conventional, non-pathologizing but successful way to support him through it.
Last but not least it helped me find the humor in looking at all the shitty hands I got dealt by the wacky card dealers at the game of life. And I love the humor of the thinkers of this model.
What about my credentials as a guide?
To guide you on this Quest I am equipped with map of consciousness given by psychonauts and some of the most eccentric thinkers I know, some formal training, an university degree and a calling to be of service.
I trained and qualified as Transformational Coach by Animas Center for Coaching and got properly mindfucked out of pursuing a “normal” life path by studying Philosophy, Comparative Religion and Political Science. Further Illumination through mindfuck happend by reading the Principia Discordia, Robert Anton Wilson and Antero Alli.
Hail Eris!
Previous versions of my self played in the game-worlds of politics, drug liberation and secularism advocacy and medical cannabis entrepreneurship.
In my current identity as chaos magician, chaotic good trickster and psychonaut I give my best to encounter the world and others with curiosity, humor, courage and an open heart.
Why do I offer this Quest?
I appreciate the power of Chaos and Crisis as portals for transformation. I choose to believe that states of Chaos allow for systemic reconfiguration and reaching new levels of functioning and inter-being.
I have framed this Quest as a period of Chaos Monastics. This is an opportunity to enter focused time to inquiry, practice and (re)commit to the path of the magician.
I have a special place in my heart for other neurodivergent folks, tricksters, fools, freaks, nerds, chaotic edge-dwellers, rebels, black sheep and solar punk visionaries and I believe that we are being called to become Agents of Change in this times of multiple crisis and Chaos.
To step up and become the Game-World creators, we need to let go of the victim stories around not fitting in and gain mastery over our Nervous System configuration so we can fully embody the change we want to seed in the world.
Since you’re reading these words, you might feel this call as well.
Ready to jump aboard and
claim one of the 15 available spots?
What are we questing for?
SHOW UP fully, DIVE IN and ENGAGE with the QUEST and you will…
- Increase intelligence in your system: by downloading this map as tool for understanding how your central nervous system operates; exploring how it processes information and mapping your experiences on different levels of consciousness and by understanding the importance of INTEGRATION for all efforts to level up.
- Increase your sense of self-worth and your sovereignty by summoning the courage to expose and bypass the sources of power loss in your life.
- Increase awareness and compassion around the programs that are running your ego-structures, challenge the programming in your brain and make adjustments to increase your response-ability to events in the Game of Life.
- Explore and embody the archetype of The Magician by increasing your will power, integrity, autonomy and capacity for reality-selection.
- Figure out which tools can help you regain balance when moving through crisis so you can surf the Waves of Chaos and level up into a higher state of operating in the world.
What is included?
A Transformational Vortex
For 9 Weeks, I will be holding a powerful transformational vortex open that will keep you focused on your Quest and committed to doing this work in your own virtual monastic cell.
You will receive: 8x 90 min video transmissions on the 8 Circuit Brain Model (live and recorded), 9 facilitated group calls, 8 Quest-Scrolls , as well as continued assistance via messenger over the course of the 9 weeks.
Each of the 8 Quest-Scrolls (one for each circuit) contain a theorem and an praxis section that will challenge your circuitry and brain programming with reflection assignments, experiments, challenges, meditations and rituals for you to play with on your Quest to explore each circuit of your Central Nervous System. This compilation is sourced from material of Robert Anton Wilson, Antero Alli, Peter Carrol, Christopher Hyatt and some devised on my own.
Experimenting with this tasks will give your first hand experience to fully download and integrate this map for further use on your psychonautic explorations.
You will have access to me via Telegram or discord for short feedback and reflections for whatever comes up during your Quest.
As a Chaos Monk, you get to choose which items you will commit to and how you will structure your individual practice.
A Personal Coaching Journey
At the core of this quest is your own personal transformational journey to which I will serve as a companion in a one-on-one setting either via video call or in my space in Berlin.
I truly believe, that a quest like this, that rattles at your programming, needs a deep and tender space to reflect and integrate what is coming up from all the challenges and that this deepens the possibilities for lasting transformation.
For you to really dive deep in playing with this material, I offer you:
An Initial 2-Hour Deep-Dive System Check-In Session, in which we will gain a deep level of clarity around where you are now in all the 8 Circuits of Intelligence and what it is that you are being called to focus your work on during this Quest.
8 ChaoSurfing Sessions a 90 minutes, in which we will tune in deeply into whatever challenge you face in your life or what ever goal of change your want to quest for. We will work together find clear next steps for dissolving limitations, creating change and moving forward to actualizing your vision.
A 2 Hour Deep-Dive System-Check-Out Session In the last week of the journey we will review the initial System Check to assess where you have leveled up and what you learned about your programming and what has shifted for you during this Quest.
A Group Journey
You will be questing together with a Crew of up to 15 psychonauts or chaos monks on this journey.
When venturing into a Quest on elusive territory a Crew of peers can make a huge difference on how you come out on the other side. As a Crew we share our findings, we give each other mirrors and support, we learn from each other and we keep each other motivated to tackle the challenges ahead.
We will have a weekly 2,5 hour Crew Call on Sundays where we will share and discuss the findings of our individual explorations of the Quest-Scrolls, receive feedback and engage in group practice with the others.
I will also host a Discord Server where you can exchange experiences and share your findings on this Quest with the other psychonauts on board, or discuss whatever topic has sparked your curiosity to dive deeper.
We connect in this group to get our juices flowing and support each other in getting the gold and most fun out of this journey.
And PS: We will not ingest consciousness altering substances. This Quest offers you the opportunity to experiment and explore without chemicals or medicines.
Testimonial by a participant from The Quest 2021:
The Flow of the Quest
This Quest starts on October 18th and runs until December 18th.
Sundays 18:00-20:30 CET we meet for a weekly Crew Call.
Mondays 19:00 – 20:30 CET I will offer a transmission on the 8 Circuit Brain Model. This will be recorded so you can watch them in your own time or attend live to participate in the Q&A.
- First Crew Call: Opening Ceremony (October 16th)
- Week 1 Circuit 1 – Bio-Unit Maintenance
- Week 2: Circuit 2 – Sovereignty and Emotional Territory
- Week 3: Circuit 3 – Map- and Sense-making
- Week 4: Circuit 4 – Social Navigation
- Week 5:Circuit 5 – Somatic Experiencing Hedonist
- Week 6: Circuit 6 – The Neurohacking Magickian
- Week 7: Circuit 7 – Network Intelligence Connection
- Week 8: Circuit 8 – Non-Local Essence and the Void
- Week 9 : integration and closing circle
I was part of the Balanced Psychonautics Crew 2021. At that time I was in uncoupling-struggles and I felt extremely supported by the intelligent way Mariana coached me throw the probably most difficult intimate relationship-issue at that moment. She helped me to understand and name my trauma reactions. I felt empowered and generously supported.
Thanks to the 8-Circuit-Brain Journey and the methods that we researched along with, I was offered to investigate into the perspective, that Chaos has the potential for a more magic and mysterious life. Who would not want that!
Frauke Spannenberg
Your Investment
Time
The most valuable investment for your personal Transformation during this monastic period is the time you commit to playing with the Quest items.
Your weekly time investment amounts to:
- 2,5 hours for a weekly Crew Call
- 1,5 hours for a weekly lecture with Q&A (live or recording)
- 90 minutes for 1 on 1 coaching ( up to 8 Sessions during the 9 weeks, you choose the time and frequency)
- 1-8 hours for completing the tasks on The Quest (you choose yourself how much you can invest and pick the items that most speak to you)
- what ever else you want to include as part of your monastic observances
Your time investment will also depend on which ticket you choose.
You can enter the Quest on a Monk ticket, do the work for yourself in your monastic cell, receive the video transmissions on the map and check in with the community on Discord.
You can enter the Quest as a Master and join the weekly virtual meetings to discuss with the others, share findings and engage in group experiences as well as engage in audio message communication with me.
You can enter the Quest as a Magician and go deep receiving 1:1 coaching and System Check Calls.
Money
For a ticket on this magical group Quest with the whole package I want to receive an upfront investment of:
2.300 Euros (incl. MwSt/VAT)
Which is my magick number and what would excite me to receive for this virtual retreat in the full package I offer.
But honoring the hard times we live through, I want to offer some flexibility so personalized package and payment options are available!
This are the numbers that have meaning and value to me. Give me your number and we will find a package that fits for you.
MONK – 230 Euros
- Access to live Transmissions with Q&A
- 8 Quest Scrolls
- Access to Discord
MASTER – 555 Euros
- All of Monk plus
- Access to Group Calls
- Individual Feedback per Telegram
MAGICIAN – 930-2300
- All of Master Plus
- Individual Coaching Package (2-8 Sessions)
- System Check in and Check Out Sessions
If you are curious enough – get in a call with me to apply for one of the total 15 spots available!
This 12-week journey with Mariana has been a transformative journey. An odyssey full of challenges, treasures, dangers and unexpected events. A magical training in the art of living with chaos and enjoying the waves of change, seizing every blow and every encounter as part of my intention. I enlisted in this crew as a magical pirate to reinvent myself. I learned to let go of the dead and shape my desires and my actions. I ended a relationship of mistreatment and abuse and saw the time approaching to take flight artistically again.
Mariana is an extraordinary magician of the 8 circuits and a wonderful coach who knows how to speak the language of her interlocutor and use the power of imagination and metaphors to materialize their intention and desire in the life of each one. Of all the circuits, C1 and C2 have been the ones that have given me the most work, but with their help I have been able to sustain myself in the process of embracing abandoned memories and areas of myself that are part of my totality.
We are a mystery. A chaos. And the beauty of chaos-surfing is to give the form that our spirit yearns for every step of the way. Knowing that within the chaos it is important to know the course of our heart. And that we are so magical that we can model reality and marvel at that miracle journey. Thank you, Mariana! Oh, my captain! My captain!
Orland Verdú
What’s the gain again?
Understand how the ego-structures of your Avatar work. Understand how fully integrating your physical, emotional, conceptual and social needs serves as a resilient anchor for natural expansion and safer explorations in higher realms of consciousness. Understand and experience how this allows you to hold more experiences of Ecstasy, Uncertainty, Indivisibility and Impermanence without frying or short-circuiting your Avatar’s CNS.
Increasing your commitment to your Body and this Life. Fully claiming your Avatar to play on Mothership Earth while releasing existential dread.
Develop compassion with your emotional responses and territorial needs by understanding the root of your patterns and adjust them to redefine your sense of self-worth, status and success.
Making your mind your servant by unpacking the Belief Systems (B.S.) and biases your mind works with. This will help to increase your sense-making and problem solving skills instead of letting your monkey mind run the show over your perception of reality.
Build your own personal ethical compass and release imprinted moral programming. This will allow you to engage in honest and conscious relating and find your tribe to create your own game-worlds to inhabit.
Listening to your body’s wisdom and fulfilling its needs for bio-survival will allow you to hold more space for presence, sacred play, awe and wonder and sublime ecstasy.
Anchoring in your sovereignty. This will allow you to hold space for multiple realities, to explore possibilities, engage in reality selection and expand your awareness of the energetic body and other signals from the psychic circus.
Releasing attachment to identities by meeting the Void allowing you to become more flexible in creating game-world characters to play in different social fields.
She has a creative way of dissecting parts of myself. With her creative, playful magical practice I realized, step by step, where my potential for positive growth lies.
Each session is full of self discoveries and new insights to explore, which she is able to stir up in the magic cauldron of the subconsciousness with her patient energy and powerful clarity.
Suzanne Weng
I feel empowered in my creativity, curiosity and self awareness in the ways I speak to myself thanks to Mariana´s guidance on this transformational journey.
Join the Quest
In a free 55 min Call we will assess where you are at and if this Quest is for you at this time.
If this is for you, you vibe with the Crew I am recruiting this round and you are ready to commit to this time and money investment, I will take you aboard this magical adventure!
If this journey feels too intense for you at this time, but you are still looking for companionship on a transformational 1:1 Journey, we can work out an individual ChaoSurfing Session package for you or you perhaps the Hermits Journey with Mama Cacao is more what you need to explore tender parts and shadows.
For the duration of this Quest I will not take on any new clients since I want to focus my attention on the Crew of the Quest.
If you have any more questions you need answered, contact me by taking a bite out of the golden apple.
CHOYOFAQUE!
All photos picturing me are © Maximiliane Wittek, 2021, the rest are contributed by creators at UNSPLASH, Graphics were created by Mike Lebrija.